He said that I was beautiful...and that I deserve a guy who...(blah blah blah).  I told him I don't care about all that stuff...doesn't really matter to me.  I think he is that guy I "deserve" or he could become that "guy that I deserve." He said that "it is unbelievable that you are still single."

I was walking a few days ago around my neighborhood....there's a house with some nice flowers growing in the front. Someone had obviously picked a flower but just tossed it on the concrete walkway. I picked it up, placed it in my book as a bookmark and went home. At home I put it in a cup of water..it was a closed bud. Yesterday I noticed the bud changing from green to orange...Today in the morning as I woke up...the flower was opening up too. The sun was shining bright and the flower was coming alive with the sunlight. I was so amazed...to see the consciousness and energy and being in that flower...that we humans can't perceive. Now it's late and the flower has closed up because of the darkness. It's sleeping as I write.

Why I tell this story is bc I got such a good feeling, knowing that this is a flower that would have just been stomped on or died very quickly...was dying. Now it's on my windowsill thriving...it won't have a long life as if  it were planted in the ground...but at least it got a bit more of life...of sunshine....

I feel like I saved a life. I saved a life for a little while. I just feel bad seeing it's pollen...and knowing it's dying to reproduce and multiply itself.

Wow I just realized...it's funny.......my favorite kind of flowers....lilies....It is an orange pixie lily. And I guess I'm "Lily" also...haha....weird.